I hear the song; it's new to me. But I sing along so I can feel like someone who wasn't wasting time on you.

Well. Now I'm in Virginia. It's weird. I don't know. It scares the fuck out of me that I'm an adult. When did this happen? It's bizarre. And I guess what scares me about being an adult is that it's now my turn to define what being an adult is about. [[ Thanks xkcd for that ]] I guess this just means I have to keep moving forward. There's not turning back now. Orientation is tomorrow for college. Geez. When did that happen? Haha. Everything is finally happening and it's freaking me out that it is.

I love song remixes. Like the Trash80 remix of Leeni's Raw Footage. Trash did a good job of making the song danceable. It was the first time I felt like dancing on an airplane. It was kind of silly. Hell, I'm kind of silly. But it's alright. I'd rather be silly. It makes life more fun.

Life is kind of boring here for the time being. My siblings aren't here and for the first time in fifteen years, I feel like I'm an only child. And as much as I love the peace and quiet, I'm lonely. And that's weird for me to admit. I usually never get this lonely. Sure, there are times when I would be at home by myself and my mom was at work and I'd think "I really don't want to be alone tonight" but that's a different kind of alone. This is the kind of alone that makes you want to talk to yourself and fight with yourself. I guess it's a boring kind of alone.

In other notes: it's fading. Or it feels like it is. And it's times like these when I wish that I had given up while I was ahead. Maybe it won't be so bad later on, but right now? Kind of sucks. But it's alright. I'm alright. ;] I'm a trooper.

Apparently, people think I'm a vegetarian. Which I don't understand. I mean, sure, I'm kind of skinny, but I'm carnivorous. So, this weekend for a wedding for a family member I'm not so close to I have to eat veggie lasagna. Hmm...this will be an interesting.

Anyway. This is all jumbled and not making any sense, kind of like my thoughts at the moment and I guess that's reflected. Haha.