Theta Tau formal was a blast! I think I had more fun than at my senior prom; granted, I was less distracted by a few things than at prom. I had a great time just having fun with the Brothers and Pledge Brothers. It was a nice experience. Best of all? My junior prom dress still fits! Ahhh. Kind of a silly thing to note, but I'm glad. It's just one of those things that helps me realizing that I'm not gaining weight, or need to lose weight. I'm still fine the way I am. So I'm back in a place where I feel comfortable with my image, and that's a great thing. It's a nice place to be.
I hate crushing on people I have no chance with. Actually, I don't think it's that I don't have a chance, it's that I'm afraid to take that chance, I think. I don't really put myself out there, so I get left with "friend" status. I guess I don't care all that much. Friendship > Relationship by far, but it's still a nice thought. Oh well. I guess I'll give this time to see if it grows or diminishes as I get to know this guy, and I'll learn from my past mistakes and I'll confront my feelings rather than letting them rot in my system for four years, getting them out, realizing that I'm getting myself nowhere. Except over that person. XD
I got really, really nostalgic today. I got to ooVoo Ethan today, and it was neat to be able to talk to a friend from high school. Granted, it is kind of lame to video chat, but hey, it's better than nothing. And I think it's neat to be able to talk to someone and see their face. It's like a fake-ass replacement for actually being there face to face. And I prefer video chat to phone calls. And now I'm watching a Ustream of a friend playing Pump. So now I miss that friend and Pump. All kinds of being all over the place.
My sleep schedule is fucked up due to Thursday's activities. I stayed up really late trying to get homework done and now I'm all over the place in terms of sleep. So. I need to figure out what's going on. I'm kind of afraid to go to sleep because I don't want to sleep through Chem Lab test. So I'm going to try to sleep on the floor. Because I generally wake up on time when I sleep on the floor, and my roommate isn't here so she won't think I'm crazy. XD
I need to work on my audition piece. Forreal.
I love getting into discussions about religion/spirituality when I know the other person isn't going to get pissed off and offended when we discuss it.
Parkour is going really, really well, I think. Aside from the conditioning which kicks my ass. And the fact that I can't exactly climb up walls yet, but I'm getting there. I keep drawing blood. And my muscles are aching less the more I practice. I just can't wait to get better at it. It's something active that I have fun doing. And it gives me time to hang out with that guy I'm crushing on. Especially since I can hang out with him outside of parkour practices and have him tell me what I'm doing way wrong.
Anyway, I feel like I'm rambling.
Note to those looking for good music: Look up Wilderness Survival. They're great. :D
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