Thinking 'bout tomorrow won't change how I feel today.

Pics or that shit didn't happen.

Conch piercing. Self-done. Obviously.

:D

Not much has happened lately for me. Apparently there were funnel clouds in Richmond yesterday and I missed that shit. I was upset, no joke. D: I wanted to see it. UGH. I got a text saying to stay inside and away from windows, but when I get a text like that I bolt out the doors to see what's going down. I want so bad to witness a tornado. To see that power, that destruction. God. I can't even imagine the adrenaline rush I would get. My life would be so close to complete.

Dave and Busters totally has a Pump machine and I want to frequent it now that I know it's there. Sad thing, Fiesta is the mix that they have there and I hate fiesta. It's like they were trying to bring back Exceed's interface and FUBAR'd that shit. But I don't need a flash drive since the cheat is on the machine to unlock full mode. I just want to go there and throw all my money at the machine. I'm sad though since my skill has staggered into a flat line and I can't seem to get past that. I wish my "instructor" for lack of a better word was here, but he isn't. :'[ I miss him.

You have suffered enough, and warred with yourself -- It's time that you won.

Theta Tau formal was a blast! I think I had more fun than at my senior prom; granted, I was less distracted by a few things than at prom. I had a great time just having fun with the Brothers and Pledge Brothers. It was a nice experience. Best of all? My junior prom dress still fits! Ahhh. Kind of a silly thing to note, but I'm glad. It's just one of those things that helps me realizing that I'm not gaining weight, or need to lose weight. I'm still fine the way I am. So I'm back in a place where I feel comfortable with my image, and that's a great thing. It's a nice place to be.

I hate crushing on people I have no chance with. Actually, I don't think it's that I don't have a chance, it's that I'm afraid to take that chance, I think. I don't really put myself out there, so I get left with "friend" status. I guess I don't care all that much. Friendship > Relationship by far, but it's still a nice thought. Oh well. I guess I'll give this time to see if it grows or diminishes as I get to know this guy, and I'll learn from my past mistakes and I'll confront my feelings rather than letting them rot in my system for four years, getting them out, realizing that I'm getting myself nowhere. Except over that person. XD

I got really, really nostalgic today. I got to ooVoo Ethan today, and it was neat to be able to talk to a friend from high school. Granted, it is kind of lame to video chat, but hey, it's better than nothing. And I think it's neat to be able to talk to someone and see their face. It's like a fake-ass replacement for actually being there face to face. And I prefer video chat to phone calls. And now I'm watching a Ustream of a friend playing Pump. So now I miss that friend and Pump. All kinds of being all over the place.

My sleep schedule is fucked up due to Thursday's activities. I stayed up really late trying to get homework done and now I'm all over the place in terms of sleep. So. I need to figure out what's going on. I'm kind of afraid to go to sleep because I don't want to sleep through Chem Lab test. So I'm going to try to sleep on the floor. Because I generally wake up on time when I sleep on the floor, and my roommate isn't here so she won't think I'm crazy. XD

I need to work on my audition piece. Forreal.

I love getting into discussions about religion/spirituality when I know the other person isn't going to get pissed off and offended when we discuss it.

Parkour is going really, really well, I think. Aside from the conditioning which kicks my ass. And the fact that I can't exactly climb up walls yet, but I'm getting there. I keep drawing blood. And my muscles are aching less the more I practice. I just can't wait to get better at it. It's something active that I have fun doing. And it gives me time to hang out with that guy I'm crushing on. Especially since I can hang out with him outside of parkour practices and have him tell me what I'm doing way wrong.

Anyway, I feel like I'm rambling.

Note to those looking for good music: Look up Wilderness Survival. They're great. :D

Am I good enough for you to love me, too?

Well, it turns out I do have to audition. And I was worrying about it until I realized that I love my audition piece. Vivaldi is so amazing, especially when he does minor compositions. I can't even express how I feel towards this movement. It's one of those pieces that I just don't want to quit rehearsing, no matter how much my carpal tunnel acts up or my arm muscles ache. And then I realized: why am I worrying? I'm going to go into that audition and fuckin' rock this piece. It's minor, it's baroque, I've got this shit. I'm excited. I just want to learn it already.

I have a tattoo idea, I want to get f-holes, like on a violin, on my back on the curve of my figure. So it's like I've become the instrument. I love idea, and I'm excited to just get it done. Haha. If I don't get it, I'll probably get something else music-related. Because I love music.

I only hope that music can love me, too.

Without you, without you everything falls apart. Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces

Stressing out. Kind of. Just a little bit. Yeah...I'm stressing. Online homework is a bitch. I hate it. Especially for things like math where it's imperative that you know the processes behind the calculations. VCU's server has been down literally all day and I have a lab due tomorrow morning at 8 AM and...well...sure, I shouldn't have procrastinated, but I couldn't have known that the server was going to die on me, either. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that the TA isn't a bitch and understands.

ALSO, just to make sure we're on the same page: displacement DOES NOT equal distance. KTHXBAI

I had my first parkour practice and it was AMAZING. I like that I can participate in something physical and have so much fun doing it. Running, like endurance running, was only as fun as I made it. Parkour has application and you can play games doing it. Sure, I'm sore as a mother fucker right now, but I don't regret it at all. I'm definitely going to keep this up. PLUS, HvZ is coming up and I haven't played that since high school...LAWL. It doesn't help that this guy from my chemistry class is in parkour. And I'm kind of crushing on him a little bit. Oh, well...

So I hit the submit button for my minor in music yesterday. It turns out you don't have to audition for a minor in music so long as it isn't vocal? I find that a little odd. Especially since VCU takes such pride in its arts programs. But I hope I get in. I've missed music so much, and I don't want to drop it. Not after the long journey I've been on with it. Music is kind of my constant these days, I'd feel really lost without having it in my life somewhere. I appreciate it too much to let it go.

Hah. So, college is breaking me out of my shell a little bit; Pledging Theta Tau, Parkour -- shit, I'm even singing karaoke and playing vocals in rockband. I don't have a great voice, but it's fun. :3 College is turning out to be the learning experience that I think I've needed. It's the chance to grow up that I've missed these past however many years. I get to be a kid. Finally.

Ugh. So, something's wrong with my poor ghetto rusty car. ;3; I think it has something to do with the transmission because when it goes to shift into higher gears [it's an automatic] it's like it sticks in neutral for a while. So...I'm going to risk driving 2 hours to my dad's house to have him look at it. D; This'll be fun. I'm TOTALLY looking forward to that. NOT. At least my fridays are done at noon. That's one of the few things I'm looking forward to this weekend. The other is going shopping, which very rarely do I ever get excited about. It's been so long since I've looked forward to getting "new" clothes. Haha. I'm such a thrift-shopper it's ridiculous. I'm practical. If I can get a pair of jeans for 3 dollars, why not get them? $3 is a much nicer price than $50 anyway.

I guess I should quit procrastinating and probably work on this lab that's due in 7 hours.