Redeem all ignorance. Apprentice disqualified. Percentile of relevance.

I need to get my shit together. I need to sit down and study. To read my goddamn textbooks and quit complaining about it. To focus and not get discouraged.

I know I'm not going to understand everything, and I know I'm not going to be the best at everything, but I find myself studying for a class that I don't even really need to study for. Calculus is not a foreign concept to me; I understand it. I spend more time on it because I'm familiar with it, which is counter-productive. If I've learned anything from my C's on assignments this past week is that I need to focus my attention on the subjects that I'm not all too strong in: Biology, Engineering, and Chemistry. And engineering isn't too bad once I memorize the formulas. So many formulas...

So, I thought I had made a friend who had two of my classes, that Bio major, but it turns out he's changing majors. I could still try to be friends with him, though. Maybe if I wasn't so socially awkward. Ah, well.

Theta Tau is progressing, I suppose. I haven't lost my book or my pledge pin, but things will get interesting when I have to start doing signature tasks for the brother's signatures. Or when initiation comes around. As a pledge, we're assigned a "big brother" who is supposed to be our mentor throughout the pledging process and it's kind of funny how similar me and my Big are. She's a huge math and physics person, much like myself, and she's literally like a month older than me. I find it easy to talk to her, too, which is a good thing.

I need to work on my music major audition piece. Forreal. I just haven't the means at the moment. I can't use practice rooms because you have to be a music student or have private lessons, but I can't, or I'm not supposed to, practice in my dorm room. Which, I don't really understand...considering my dorm is technically the artsy dorm with all of the artsy kids. I don't think anyone would mind too much...but I get nervous playing in front of people. That's going to have to be something I get over.

Anyway, my first college exam is tomorrow! Calculus. Of course. Haha. Nothing too horrible...and I hope I do well on it considering limits aren't my strong suit in calculus. But I should probably study some.

Peace.